I don’t like labels, even though I’m a typical and slightly extreme case in this matter, I still don’t like going around saying that it is social phobia that holds me back.
All the questions that comes with it just doesn’t make it worth to mention.
I don’t like people, I have a fear of people and social situations where I’m forced to interact with people.
Would I tell anyone that I have arachnophobia I wouldn’t be questioned, fair enough it’s more common as far as we know. But it has been so many times I’ve been ridiculed and dismissed due to lack of knowledge.
Why does it makes sense to have a fear of spiders but doesn’t to have a fear of people and social situations?
The best part about this is that I can not avoid my fear and stay happy that way. I can not avoid people and social situations for the rest of my life and I’ve been told that it wouldn’t be a smart idea if I killed my fears as if it was a spider. How tempting it is..
It’s a battle every day, going to work, going shopping and just going outside in general.
It’s the only way to make some progress, there was a time in my life where I was unable to leave my house, couldn’t even go to the local shop and buy some milk. I couldn’t work, go to school or be outside and interact with people in any way.
It’s been a little bit over 10 years since then and major progress has been done.
Medication..? Yeah…No. There is probably some out there that find it really helpful but I just don’t believe in it. To suppress ones emotions, ones really strong and powerful emotions, is just not a good idea. It has to come out eventually, one way or another.
I believe in letting myself feel whatever I need to feel at the moment and then leave it at that.
Social phobia, I am a typical and slightly extreme case but I don’t like labels, most would just see me as weird and slightly rude and that’s a hell lot easier to explain.